Why A Broken Church Girl
The broken church girl's story is one of pain, hurt, and trauma experienced within the church community and life. She may have grown up as a preacher's daughteor, as in the case of the book. That will be released soon enough. She may have experienced hurt and betrayal from people within the churches that she trusted. Yet, it is because of the distance in discussions, her trauma outside, has been just that great. Her story may involve wandering down paths that broke and crushed her, but ultimately rebuilt and shaped her.
The broken church girl's story is one of struggle, but also of resilience and hope. Through her journey, she learns how to heal, forgive, and rebuild her faith. She may seek healing in healthy and meaningful ways, and be empowered to live a more liberated and honest life while navigating through her faith journey. Although I’ll be sharing my stories of triumph and sometimes defeat, there are so many more of us than we think. This space will share as many testaments of other “broken” church girls that are actually healing women!
I wholeheartedly believe that the sole reason why the pain that is received through attending church is so real, as it is, is because most attend church with a level of vulnerability, that none really seem to want to admit. See it’s through the loss of our innocence through the traumatic experiences that we’ve had that has built the character of the people that we have become today. Through various levels of coping mechanisms and lack of trust, ideas, and the level of insecurities and insincerity that we live with, oftentimes times we build these walls to continue to protect ourselves. Yet when we are attending church, we walk in the doors, not thinking of any attacks or the wars and battles of others. We are not thinking of the true spiritual brokenness that can be found within the four walls of the church. The inevitable disappointment is not necessarily in people or how they are acting. Our inevitable hurt comes from our expectations of others and our fantasized desires of how heavenly the church folk should or even could be. Yet, the minute we become a member, we too have now become church folk, not holding ourselves accountable for how we behave.
We enter for genuine reasons coming in there sharing and showing your most vulnerable selves. Shewt, more than likely we are tired, upset, and already disappointed in our decisions in life. Some of us are lost due to loss and just so many reasons for why so many of us women find ourselves in church. Yes, let’s agree, we know we need to have a real relationship with God. Matter of fact, let’s not talk about those of us who were trained up in the way we were supposed to go, and want to return. We would kind of wholeheartedly want to believe that not only should the reception be loving and a whole celebration, but the time there should not cause disappointment, pain, hurt, frustration, or grief.
I realized that the hurt I received in the church was extremely devastating from a young age to just yesterday. It’s not so much that the hurt is something that no one should experience it’s a matter of how much healing have we obtained so that we understand how to not marinate in those traumatic experiences, and not absorb those traumatic experiences, but be able to overcome them in the right spirit and mindset, as well as staying connected to God the way we should.
I’m creating this platform to share my stories, and also share the stories of other women who have taken on the responsibility of the self-healing. We have been allowed through our obedience in divine connection to God, and understanding, that our soul salvation is no longer at stake and that our body is going to turn to the dust from once it came yet our spirits are broken spirits we never quite talk about. It’s the healing of the broken spirit that matters.
Stick around, you may just be inspired to share your story one day or just be encouraged by others. Thank you for entering our space of transparency and victory.
